Author’s Note and Conclusion

(Last Revised July 4, 2008)

God only knows when the rejection of this message will end. But, when it does, the whole world will become aware of it. And that will cause a lot of discussion about who and what I am.

On other pages I’ve explained what the most relevant prophecies about me are, and the page titled Prodigal Son of Man provides a very brief summary of my life. But, on this page I will tell you a little more, because I think you should know certain things about me, so there is no mistake.

But, before I "speak of myself" here, I should clarify what the Christ Jesus meant by the following statements.

"He that speaks of himself seeks his own glory. But he that seeks the glory of who sent him, the same is true, and no unrighteousness is in him." (John 7:18)

"When he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth. For he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak; and he will show you things to come. He shall glorify me, for he shall receive of mine, and shall declare it to you." (John 16:13-14)

I seek not to glorify myself, but to glorify God and the Ancient One (aka the Christ) who is in heaven with God. I bear his testimony, and declare it to you, and I do so anonymously to emphasize that I glorify God and the Ancient One in heaven, not myself, and to also emphasize that it is the truth, and nothing but the truth, that shall unite us, empower us all, and set us all free.

Furthermore, I do not speak of myself as a Christ, but as a servant of the Christ, and a servant of God, who is the Holy One and Creator by any other name.

Consider what Jesus said in context: "I tell you the truth; It is to your advantage that I go away. For if I do not go away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him to you. And when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: of sin, because they do not believe in me [or my teachings]; of righteousness, because I go to our Father [to heaven] and you see me no more; of judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged. I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth. For he shall not speak of himself [but serve only as messenger]; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he declare, and he will show you things to come. He shall glorify me, for he shall receive of mine, and shall declare it to you." (John 16:7-15)

Also consider this: "He is my witness and my servant whom I have chosen, so you may know and believe me, and understand that I am the Holy One. Before me there was no God formed, and neither shall there be after me. I, even I, am the Lord God, and beside me there is no Savior." (Isaiah 43:10-11)

I fulfill Judeo-Christian prophecy, but it has taken me 37 years, after first witnessing God, to come to this point. And I know very well why it is written that God chastises those who God loves, and that a servant of God should not grow weary of being chastised.

That is why I tell you I am only human, like you. I am from your midst and of your brethren. I am what I am. And even though I am a faithful servant of God, it is without false modesty that I confess I am certainly not "holier than thou."

I believe it is important that you know that. That is why I confess that I’ve been a fool many times in my life. I am a very weak and vulnerable man in many respects, and sometimes I even regard myself as a miserable excuse of a man.

Sometimes I regard myself as a failure, because that seems to be confirmed by the continuing rejection of my work. For even though the prophet Isaiah foresaw and wrote that I would deliver my work before me but fear that my work is in vain and for nought because it is first rejected, that did not prevent me from fearing that it is indeed in vain and for nought. And, even though the Christ Jesus foresaw and said that I would at first be rejected by my generation, that did not prevent me from fearing that the rejection means I have simply failed.

I have continued because, even though it took me many years to face the fact, it has fallen upon me to do this. I was called by God and chosen to deliver the prophesied message from the Spirit of truth. But, even though I could not quit as long as there is still breath in my body and as long as I am still able to do this, at this point it would still appear that I am merely a man who has struggled to deliver a message, but has only grown old and more afflicted, and fallen short.

Often, however, things are not as they appear. When I overcome my negativity, I realize my egocentric fear of failure or error is merely the flip side of my egocentric notion that "I" have done something great. Fortunately, in my increasingly lucid moments I realize that both sides are part of the illusion of duality, and neither one is real. For as Jesus said, "Of myself I do nothing." So I somehow manage to put myself aside, let go of my egotism, and let God guide me in ways that often amaze me, and make me very grateful.

I am 67 years old now, but since I was stricken with my first affliction and confined to a wheelchair 31 years ago, my body has aged more rapidly than it would have. But I’ve overcome much, and for nearly two and a half decades I’ve been trying in many different ways to get this message across to people. Of course, my earlier efforts were, as I look at them now, foolish, lacking and grossly inadequate. And I can see now that even the five books that were published from 2002 to 2006 were certainly far from perfect, to say the least. But then, I’m not a professional writer, and that’s not how I’ve earned my living.

However, I’ve learned a lot in the last two years, and I hope that the revised and expanded highlights of the message on this web site are better, and might sufficiently serve as the prophesied message that the world needs. And, to be honest, I believe that it is still rejected by most people because they are too quick to dismiss me as a religious crackpot, or because they think they know better for whatever reason, or because they belong to spiritually blind flocks that have been misled by false shepherds and false prophets.

But, even though the rejection has made me question, criticize, and doubt myself, it has also helped me. During the seven years since I was able to publish my first book and web site, and advocate my work however I could and still remain anonymous, the rejection made me face up to and correct any errors I became aware of, try my very best to improve the message highlights on this web site, and even expand the message somewhat.

Now the time has come, however, that I must make this final revision, because I must move on, and, if God is willing and I am able, proceed to the next phase of my mission – a gentler phase, for my sake, for humanity’s sake, and for God’s sake.

I’ve written all this, and what is in my books, because I am an actual witness of God, the Divine Light-Energy-Source of our existence. When I was 30 years old I was carried away in spirit to that high and holy place where God inhabits eternity, and I went through the tunnel and into the Divine Light of God. I became one with God, knew the Divine Universal Love of God, felt the ecstacy of God, opened the Book of Life, and was there for what seemed an eternity before I came back down to earth and back into this body.

I am not that Light, but I bear witness to that Light, which is God, even though I feel I am not worthy. I am a prodigal son of man, and many of my mistakes were made because I should have known better, even though many were made because I was simply and unwittingly naive, or blissfully ignorant or unaware.

Even though I’ve been diligent and careful to check facts and statistics cited in my work, I am only human, and fallible, just as all other authors of scriptures and books have been throughout history. So, while critics try to find mistakes and quibble over biblical quotes or statistics that I cite in my work, I will certainly not claim I have made no mistakes. I have. But, I’ve corrected those I’ve been made aware of over the years, and I try to learn from them. And, even though a little bit of the criticism against me is valid, most of it is not, because critics don't recognize the Spirit of truth in my work. But then, most critics either have not really read the message, or they simply refuse to face the truth because they don’t like it. And if I were them, I wouldn’t like it either.

Some "religious" critics accuse me of blasphemy, and even of being the "anti-christ." But that doesn’t bother me much, because in most cases those who make that accusation are the worst and most blatant hypocrites. They boastfully and arrogantly claim to be Christians, while they blatantly say and do things that are anti-Christian. They do not know what the "Antichrist" really is, and they certainly do not know the Christ, or his God. In fact, they are the hypocrites the Christ Jesus said would cry out when they are now rebuked, saying, "Lord, Lord, have we not done many wonderful works in your name?" even though they actually "work iniquity."

Many other critics haven’t bothered to read the message and yet still accuse me of being a deluded religious nut with a messianic complex, but that doesn’t bother me because I understand why. They are skeptical of and turned off by anything "religious," because so many religious bigots and hypocrites have given religion a bad name.

Another criticism is the claim that "a true prophet would not have to revise and improve" the message he delivers. But how could anyone claim they know what a true prophet would do today to explain God’s will and show you things to come? And the fact is that, given this wonderful medium, the Internet, it only makes sense that I take advantage of the opportunity to make revisions to further clarify and explain things, as I learn of questions, concerns and criticisms. And why wouldn’t I use this medium to reach all over the world, and provide this free message?

As I see it, the criticism and rejection of my work is based on egocentric feelings of superiority, whether it be for personal, racial, religious, political, nationalistic, or cultural reasons. Egocentric people do not like being told that they or their race or religion or religious sect or political ideology or nation or culture are NOT superior to all others. They do not realize they have an individual or cult superiority complex based on divisive, alienating false beliefs.

The accusation that has bothered me, however, was put forth by someone who wrote: "You are what you accuse others of being." That bothered me because in most cases when that statement is made, it is true. In fact, I’ve even said it myself, and I’ve also said that your enemy is often just a reflection of your self. I know that very well, and it’s why the Christ Jesus advised to love even your enemy.

You see, I realize that I can be seen as a hypocrite for judging religious bigots and hypocrites, even while I remind everyone else that we should judge not. That bothered me too, and it caused a terrible dilemma for me -- one that I struggled for many years to overcome. I finally overcame it only about four months ago, after a marvelous revelation and discovery, and that began a series of more revelations and discoveries that have recently enabled me to finally overcome most of my other doubts and fears, thank God.

However, my doubts and fears never completely deterred me from striving to fulfill my mission, because I’ve known in my heart and soul since 1979 what my mission is. That’s when I received a miraculous sign from God and first started learning about prophecies. At that time I began to learn and realize why I was called by God in 1971, and had been chosen as the witness and servant of God and messenger for the Spirit of truth who would deliver judgment and tell you what is to come.

That’s what I’ve been trying to do for a very long time, even though I’ve been filled with such doubt and fear that it stopped me for several long periods of time. And that was not only because of my own egocentric dilemma, as I mentioned above, but also because I was faced with so many accusations and so much rejection as I have tried to deliver the message in writing.

While part of the rejection is because many people are now skeptical of anything "religious," another part is because many religious people think they already know the truth about prophecies. Most religious "authorities," particularly those who claim to be the only "true" Jews or Christians or Muslims, are quite sure they know how prophecy will be fulfilled, and some of them even think they know when.

But, they all have different ideas about it, and there is a very good reason why all their religious texts speak of one to come who will deliver the message that issues judgment, guides humanity unto the real truth, and shows what is to come. And even the messenger does not know exactly when the message will be accepted and received to fulfill prophecy. He only knows that he must deliver it, and that he will first be rejected by his generation and suffer many things, just as the prophet Isaiah and the prophet and Christ Jesus foretold.

False prophets and false shepherds (leaders) do not understand that, either because they've been led to believe in other scenarios, or they have their own ideas, which tend to be theocratic and sectarian. Some of them even tend to be exclusive, because they judge, hate and virtually condemn all those they judge as "godless unbelievers" or "infidels." They are so invested in their own self-importance and self-righteousness that they cannot see what they have become.

But the Christ Jesus foretold and predicted all this. He warned us that there would now be false prophets and religious hypocrites causing conflict and leading their spiritually blind flocks astray. That’s because hypocrites fervently believe prophecy means that killing their enemies in a so-called "holy war" or "jihad" will bring them victory. That's why so many Jews, Christians and Muslims are fighting and killing each other. They are blind to the fact that the only "weapons" of God’s true servant-messenger are not carnal or lethal, but mighty through God for pulling down divisive and harmful leaders. They do not realize that the real prophesied judgment will ultimately expose, rebuke and take power away from those who have misused it, nor do they realize that the message from the Spirit of truth explains how and why the humble and meek shall inherit the earth, establish justice, set things straight, reconcile those in conflict, mend the divisions, and make peace.

Of course, there are a number of good and true spiritual teachers who can tell you much of what I have to tell you, because a good number of blessed people have been given the gift of revelation and realization of divine, eternal, universal truths. Furthermore, many of them are far more learned and knowledgeable than I am, and they have much to teach those who wish to learn from them.

But, the prophesied messenger of God and the Spirit of truth is different, and unique. Of course he must be a spiritual teacher, but he must also deliver the judgment that will save and change the whole world, and he must also tell you what is to come.

The other true spiritual teachers do not judge. They are very wise, but they are very humble and meek. That is, they are loving, gentle and non-judgmental. They are not fault-finders. They do not judge or criticize or rebuke wrong-doers. Rather, they are forgiving and accepting, and they offer their wisdom for the edification of those who have been led astray and need redemption. However, they do not seek or recruit students. They accept students who come to them with a sincere desire to learn the truth, and they do not ask for financial contributions or remuneration. Therefore, you should beware of pretenders and imposters who claim to know and serve God but do not fit that standard or criteria.

If you seek one, you will find that there are many good spiritual teachers. And while I hesitate to mention any because you will be guided to one who is appropriate for you, I will mention something about some of them.

One of my favorites is the first one I learned of in 1971, after I witnessed God and became interested in spiritual teachings to find out what others have learned about Divinity. His name is Stephen Gaskin, an American who got his start in San Francisco in the 1960s, teaching Monday Night Class to many thousands who were spiritually inclined. He and a large group of followers then founded The Farm, an intentional community or commune in Tennessee, in 1971. Stephen teaches a mixture of religious and spiritual philosophies, and his heart is absolutely in the right place. He was and still is motivated by universal love, and he values true peace and freedom. He helped to steer many in the Woodstock generation in the right direction and away from confrontation and violence. Stephen has been doing great work ever since, setting a very good example and trying to make a difference to improve things and help those who need help. His community has much to teach us about many different subjects, including wonderful charitable practices, eco-villages, eco-farming, midwifery, vegetarian cooking, etc. (Visit www.thefarm.org)

There are many other spiritual teachers who understand the core, universal truths that are common to all religions, and many teach a combination of religious philosophies and spiritual teachings with an emphasis on universal love, peace, freedom, compassion, understanding, tolerance, charity, forgiveness, and pacifism. They understand the teachings of Solomon, Jesus, Gautama (the Buddha), Lao Tzu, Mohammed, Ghandi, King, and all the others who learned and taught the eternal, universal truths.

There are also many good teachers who operate within a specific religious context and use a specific religion’s scriptures as their main teaching aid. However, the good ones also understand and emphasize the eternal, universal, core principles and values that are common to all religions, and point out how and why all religions are related. They do NOT claim that their religion, or their idea of religion, is superior to all others. They teach that we are ALL ONE of a kind.

If you lean more toward the Eastern teachings, there are many teachers to choose from. There are many good spiritual teachers who lean toward Buddhism and/or Hinduism, but also understand the teachings of Solomon, Gautama, Jesus, Lao Tzu, Mohammed, and other great spiritual teachers.

I think one of the best current teachers in that respect is Sathya Sai Baba, who has said: "I have come to light the lamp of Love in your hearts, to see that it shines day by day with added luster. I have not come on behalf of any exclusive religion. I have not come on a mission of publicity for a sect or creed or cause, nor have I come to collect followers for a doctrine. I have no plan to attract disciples or devotees into my fold or any fold. I have come to tell you of this unitary faith, this spiritual principle, this path of Love, this virtue of Love, this duty of Love, this obligation of Love."

Sai Baba gets it, but I should say that those in the West should understand the traditional Eastern context in which he speaks. That is, like certain other enlightened gurus who have been or are regarded as Avatars, he speaks AS the Ancient One or Holy One, but does so FOR the Holy One and Ancient One that is within and above us all. But then, Westerners, especially Christians, should also understand that’s what the Christ Jesus did too. For even though his apostles apparently did not fully understand that, it is why Jesus said, "Before Abraham was, I am," and "I" am in you, and you are in me, and we are in God. We all have the potential of realizing that the True Self is the Inner Self of All, and that we are ONE in Spirit.

I should also tell you that there are some other spiritual teachers who are teaching many of the core universal truths, but couch their teaching with other claims that they are unique, and special.

For example, there is one person, also an anonymous author, who has written a document called "The Final Freedoms." He claims it is "the first wholly new and complete interpretation of the teachings of Jesus the Christ and The Law for two thousand years." However, that is simply not true. Moreover, it is obvious to me that some of those who have studied it and have been advocating it on the Internet do not understand what God is, and are still in the dark even after reading and studying the writing.

Another person calls himself "The Reluctant Messenger," and on his web site he claims that he was taught by and serves the spirit of departed enlightened beings, and he too attempts to explain the meaning of the Bible and ties his explanation to all religions and spiritual teachings.

Another person, Benjamin Creme, has for a long time attempted to serve as the herald for "Maitreya," a "new Christ-Avatar-Buddha," who Creme claims is an immortal being of light who assumed a bodily form in 1977, and can change form, and will reveal himself to everyone telepathically as soon as a "coming economic collapse" occurs.

Of course, there are many others making all different kinds of claims about a Christ and/or Avatar and/or Buddha, etc. But I mention those three because I think the authors of the literature are well meaning. I haven’t read all their work, but I’ve read enough to think they may understand much of religion and spiritual teachings. It seems to me, upon a cursory examination of their work, that they recognize the cause of most of the problems of the world, and they understand certain parts of the solution. Therefore, some of the information they provide may have value for those who are drawn to their teaching. At least they are trying to bring people together on a path of fairness, peace and equality, and that’s good.

However, none of them fulfill Judeo-Christian prophecy. And while I realize that it may seem self-important and self-righteous of me to assert that I am the prophesied witness and servant of God, the son of man, and the messenger for the Spirit of truth, I must say I am he.

Ironically, one of the reasons I can say I am is because I have fully realized I am not worthy to be. In fact, I am painfully aware of that. I am special only in the respect that I have done what I was called and chosen by God to do. And God only knows why I was chosen.

Nevertheless, as I explained in Memoirs of a Prodigal Son of Man, I witnessed God and was called at age 30 in 1971, but at the time I didn't know why. I did know what God is, because, as I said, I had been carried away in spirit to that high and holy place where God inhabits eternity. I had fortuitously realized the nature of divine, universal love, and that had triggered a series of revelations that culminated in my being drawn up in spirit into God's presence. When I witnessed God I knew the total ecstasy and overwhelming love and understanding that comes with being in the Divine Light of God's presence. I knew that we all are in fact one with God, and one with each other in spirit. And for a long time I knew the peace and joy of recognizing the divine reality that is within and right here at hand. But it wasn't as if I wore "rose colored glasses" and ignored reality. It was that I actually saw the good in everything and every one, and that was my very natural focus and perception.

However, in 1971 I did not know very much about politics, and I really knew very little about religion and even less about spiritual teachings. And I had no direction. All I had was a deep desire to see if there was a way I could return to God in the same way. That is why I began to try to find out if others had experienced what I had, and, if so, to see what they had to say about it. That's when I started learning what human beings had written about divinity and spiritual things. I read about many spiritual teachings, but I didn’t even start to read the Christian Bible until 1975. And at that time all I saw were the errors in it, and the judgmental, condemning and destructive aspects of it.

At that time I really thought I already knew it all, anyway. And, in a way, I did. But I was foolish, and I had gradually let my witnessing God "go to my head." I had developed a misguided messianic complex, and four years after I witnessed God, at age 34, I unwittingly sought worldly power because I imagined myself as a great leader.

Then, at age 36 I was stricken and afflicted with a disabling disease and confined to a wheelchair, but I didn't know why, and I didn't learn enough from it, at least not at first.

In 1979 at age 38, two years after being stricken and afflicted, and after a long period of isolation, meditation and study, and after 40 more days of fasting, I received a miraculous sign from God and was shown some crucial things about Judeo-Christian prophecy in the Bible, about the son of man first being stricken and afflicted, and suffering many things. But, I then indulged in fantasy and self-delusion, and I foolishly imagined myself as a great guru with many devotees and "gopis" (female lovers).

But, no one saw me as anything but a man who had been stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted, just as the prophet Isaiah foresaw.

I've come back "down to earth" since then, but I've suffered many other things since then because it's been difficult for me to not feel self-important and self-righteous, and I unwittingly continued in my folly. As Isaiah foresaw and foretold, that is why I was stricken and afflicted in the first place, and why I have suffered so many things, even though my suffering is apparently not only as a consequence of my own errors and my "covetousness and willfulness," as Isaiah put it, but also for the "transgressions of my people." And that is why Jesus foresaw and foretold that I would "first suffer many things and be rejected by my generation."

But, even so, I deserve my lot. It is, in large part, karmic justice, because I have not only been a covetous and willful fool, but at times I have been a miserable excuse of a man, and many years ago I was a slothful and undisciplined student.

I am, nevertheless, a genuine witness of God, and all of those conditions in my life were prophesied by Isaiah and Jesus. I couldn't quite believe it when I first began to learn some of those prophecies in 1979, but ten years later, after much self-doubt and wavering, and after gradually learning more of what was actually prophesied, I finally understood and accepted my full responsibility. That's why during the years since then I have steadily and increasingly been striving to serve as the messenger of God, even though I knew I would be rejected by my generation.

I honestly do not know whether that means that the message will not be accepted until after I die, or after my generation has passed, or any day now. Only God knows.

But, if it is accepted soon, I am willing to risk my life for this, which would be the case if my identity is somehow revealed by someone who reads my memoirs, figures out who I am, and betrays me. I fervently hope that doesn't happen, but I realize that is a possibility, and in that event I would just have to go into seclusion. I will still try to remain hidden from public view, and I will still not become a public figure. That was prophesied by Isaiah, and it is consistent with my natural inclination. I've told my life story only because you should know that I have been a fool and am just a fallible human being. That is why I explained fully in my memoirs why I am a contrite, prodigal son of man, as Isaiah foresaw.

I think it is important that I tell you that now, 37 years after I was called and witnessed God, almost 31 years since I was stricken and afflicted with a disabling disease, and after suffering many other things and being tempered by that suffering, I continue to learn how to put myself aside, recognize that of myself I do nothing, and be guided by the Spirit of truth.

It’s not "natural" and I don't always succeed, as is probably apparent in my writing, because I still tend to be a self-important, self-righteous, egocentric man, like many other men. I came back down to earth and normal consciousness long ago, and it's a real effort to allow my conscience and the Spirit of truth to prune or temper my ego. And I’ve often failed. That's why I've continued to revise what I've written on this site. I thank God for the Internet and World Wide Web, because web sites can be revised, while what is written in books cannot be changed. That's too bad, and I hope people will overlook any errors or unfair misjudgments in the books.

As I said, I am painfully aware of the hypocrisy of my judging others while I remind everyone else that we should not judge others. I must judge and be brutally honest, even though it makes me feel terrible. In fact, I think that is one of the reasons why I still suffer from so many things, because I have often been plagued by self-doubt and guilt for being judgmental. That is why having to write this message has been so damaging to me personally.

Keeping the big secret of who I am and what I doing here has also been damaging to me, and it has probably caused some of my suffering. And even though most of the many maladies I've been afflicted with are not life-threatening, my heart disease and congestive heart failure are. But, thank God, modern medicine, alternative medicine, herbal remedies, open heart bypass surgery and a pacemaker/defibrilator have prolonged my life so far. As the prophet Isaiah foresaw and foretold, God has prolonged my life so far. But only God knows how much longer I will live, and I can only hope and trust and have faith that I will be able to do what I may still need to do.

I try to keep in mind that God forgives me and will welcome me home when I leave this body, and I try to remind myself that I have learned some of my lessons very well. That's why I will absolutely not seek personal power as an official religious leader, nor will I seek the political power or official authority to make political decisions that affect people's lives. I reject the throne of worldly power, and I will not be an orator who pontificates from behind a pulpit or dictates from behind a podium. That’s not what I am supposed to be.

I seek only to express the truth as I have been able, and deliver the written truth, because it is indeed the truth, and nothing but the truth, that shall unite us all, empower us all, and set us all free, and it is not the messenger that the world needs, but the message.